putting it in perspective (of a 15 year old)...

exhausted. thats how i feel today. i woke up this morning feeling pretty crappy...almost to the point of wanting to call in sick to work. i just was headachey and tired and it was bad. i came downstairs and let lexi out and then ended up dozing on the couch for about an hour. then tried to run a few errands before going into work.

work was nuts!!! when i get there, i found out that our entire computer system was down. down!?? at dell childrens medical center?? how does that happen?? it was so crazy because we dont do anything on paper anymore. all of our charts and orders are in the computer...so basically it was just all of us standing around trying to figure out how to function without computers. it was stressful and busy and honestly, not all that fun for the first 5 hours of work. luckily the computers got up and running again and all was right with the world. work was still super busy and i was running around the entire time, i dont think i sat down once...except maybe to go to the bathroom.

the best part of the night was right before i left, i went to go say goodbye to perla and let her know that i would see her tomorrow and i ended up sitting on her bed and talking to her for about 45 minutes. i am constantly humbled and blessed in my job and listening to a 15 year old battling cancer really puts so many things in perspective. her outlook on life is amazing and encouraging. she deals with things any 15 year old does - girl drama at high school and gaining weight and myspace - but here she is in front of me, no hair, throwing up from chemo and stuck in a hospital bed. and yet she is happy. all the time. she is so mature and takes nothing for granted. her perspective on life is one that i want to gain. i am jealous of her maturity and outlook and i hoping by being in her presence, it rubs off a little bit on me.

a trip to whataburger and i am home. i am happy to be putting my feet up, they actually hurt today. today was the first day i havent gone for a run in the 3 weeks since i started...dang. i just felt so horrible when i woke up. that means i definitely need to get to sleep so i can get up and run for sure before class tomorrow...another long day...